Hepatitis C can be a burden. Heck, life with or without hepatitis C isn’t exactly a picnic. Do you ever find yourself having a moment of complete abandon? You are plodding along, feeling a bit weary. Perhaps you are longing for something long gone, the charge you got from life when you were young. Unfortunately, that kind of spark often came when we did things we don’t do anymore because we are older and wiser, and besides, that kind of fun got us in to a lot of trouble when we were young.
I was smitten by complete abandon this week. I was driving, when “Touch Me” by the Doors came on the radio. I nearly danced myself off the seat. I didn’t care how crazy I looked. I felt free.
In retrospect, I can’t tell you why that song lifted me up so much. The lyrics are ridiculous. I don’t understand what this means:
Why won’t you tell me what she said?
What was that promise that you made?
However, what I do understand is that the instrumentation is amazing, and when the horn solo began my cares vanished.
What does this have to do with hepatitis C? Everything. I recall feeling like the virus held me hostage. It doesn’t any more, but now there are times I feel shackled by the stigma, and the urgency to raise awareness and rid the world of hepatitis C. However, the truth is this – there is only this moment. The moment before the Doors song came on, I felt trapped. During and after the song, I felt free. Nothing had changed except the moment.
Music has that power. So does nature, the arts, sports, love, good friendship, a hot shower, good food, kindness, watching a kitten or puppy, the right words, a smile.
My joy was briefly interrupted when I reflected on the Doors’ lead singer Jim Morrison. Dead at age 27, Morrison probably had hepatitis C like many of his musical contemporaries who used heroin. Would he have had the stamina it takes to live with this virus? It takes courage to get up every day, face life, and to defy hepatitis C. But Morrison didn’t get that chance. You did.
You have that kind of courage. You wouldn’t be reading this if you didn’t. Without courage, you might not even be alive. But you are alive. The question is, are you alive and free? If you are feeling burdened, set yourself free. To get you started, here are links to a few of my favorite You Tube videos.
- Operating Room Flash Mob Prior to Double Mastectomy
- Extreme Happiness
- Pharrell Williams’ Happy
- Touch Me by The Doors