The next guest blogger for this liver awareness month series is Shellie Berry. Her blog is, Defeating Hep C: A Minority Voice in the Battle of Hepatitis C. In 1987 at the age of 12, Shellie contracted HCV genotype 1a via a blood transfusion during chemotherapy treatment for leukemia (acute myelocytic leukemia). This year she began triple therapy, and Shellie posted this at the 28 week point.
Shellie included a postscript in her blog that is so powerful that I moved it up front. She wrote, “Living in fear is working hard not to lose in the end. Living by faith is knowing I will win in the end. A faithful life is a free one. A fearful life is a defeated one.”
Wow! 28 weeks! I remember when I first started treatment and another patient shared that she was 28 weeks in. I couldn’t imagine it then. And here I am now!
I’m doing well. I’m still an “undie.”
I have 20 weeks to go. And I’m gonna be just fine…
Many patients get to this point and – having had such a difficult time – decide to call it quits. In doing so, their risk of relapse is 25% (if I remember correctly). My life isn’t a breeze, but I know I’ll make it. I know I will. That’s a great feeling. You know, having confident hope – unwavering faith. I can’t say that my track record is stellar in this area. No, not at all… I’ve grown to develop this depth of faith. And this treatment is included in the credits.
Nowadays I think of my treatment as “training wheels.” God gave me these “training wheels” to assist me in my ride of healing and growth, until I can pedal with more confidence. In due season, the “training wheels” will come off. When that day comes, I will have: (1) the balance to enjoy the journey, (2) the faith to ride even though I will fall, and (3) the strength needed to get up when I do.
My “training wheels” reveal to me my limitations. (This is good!) As I learned to accept my limitations, I learned that they don’t really limit me, but give me an opportunity to live a freer life.
Having limitations means I do not have to do it all, or know it all, or fix it all(even when I can do it all or think I do know it all…). I mean, I couldn’t fix this virus, could I? Not without help, anyway.
Today, I derive such joy and peace when I see others do what I thought only I was supposed to do. And they do it well too (even better than me – sometimes…LOL!)!